the fight

The rain comes............ I wait for it with mixtures of anger and sadness. The rain drops start to fall, soaking me.... I look around, still he is nowhere. Then i got his call, asking me where I am.

After few minutes, I see him running towards me with all the things that we had bought earlier. The rain has completely drenched him from head to toe, still he is least bothered but looking for me. My anger vanishes, something warm overpowers me. I run towards him.

In the middle of the Patan, in the midst of rainfall that looks like in mood of playing cats and dogs game, I hold his hand. He looked at me, said how sorry he is, hugged me tightly and said I love you. 


All i could do was: smile at him, hug him more tightly and whisper: I love you too and I am sorry as well.


And we waited for rain to stop. 

who has got the visa?

Yay, it's Erik.

Finally he got a year long study visa.

But sadly right after it, we had a big spat on broad day light at Thamel, with everyone looking at us. But we have moved beyond that fight now, hopefully it won't repeat again!

<3 for all those who read and sympathized me during this difficult period!

fear of being together

Have you ever found yourself in catch-22 situation of wanting to be together with your loved one and yet same time fear of doing so? Well, I am having one of those moments. As I mentioned earlier, Erik has asked me to move in with him if everything goes well and he gets long-term visa (fingers crossed for visa). To tell you the fact, since last week he has been staying over at my place. But living together is not as easy as seeing for few hours a day. You see the worst side, best side of the person: whether you like it or not. I have this fear, what if we both got tired of eachother? Except for few outburst of irritations, we got along really well. But living together every day and night??? Hmmmmmm

Also how do i break this news to my MOM? She might be very liberal to accept me but accept the fact that her son would leave the house and go live with someone else? how would she react to the idea? How do i juggle between these two world?

Still scenario looks faraway, but it scared me for sure!

In another news, I added my super-boss on fb. She must have got spanner seeing my relationship status. lol :P I love surprising people!

what's there to hide?

After we went public on facebook with our relationship,  i wonder what's there to hide and be ''anonymous'' here? But i guess the fun is I am being anonymous to Erik himself. (big green laughter). Yes i haven't told him about this blog and i don't intend to. If i did, then what's fun in whining about him sometimes. So you might be wondering, reactions to being public?

Strange people are not brave enough to ask question to the concerned even if they are dying with curiosity. But yes my friends got lot of quizzes and questions: at one point one of my friends told me 'pay me to be your personal assistant' to which i replied 'tell them, our policy do not allow to talk about private/personal issues. Please refer to fb post for any of your queries'. It would be fun :P Anyways, those who chose to ask me, I am telling them 'YES'. 

How do i feel about it? Calm, Peace and happy. But still I haven't got the guts to spill out to mom and Erik says 'I don't think your mom views me as your just friend'. Wish i could tell her ASAP but probably before we make another giant move.

Apart from getting inner peace in telling the world, another  light is seen at the end of the tunnel, finally. Erik's visa seems to be in reach. He has enrolled in university and now he will get letter from the university  (tomorrow to be precise), requesting Education ministry to write another recommendation to Immigration for visa. Hopefully without any fuss, Immigration will give him visa for one year. After all, he got no objection letter from his consulate easily unlike last time. Another weird thing is, apparently TU never ask such 'no objection letter' for other students but to Spanish. Confusing bureaucracy.