Believe

Believe. Just a word but very strong and powerful.
Probably this is the word that binds everything together and gives meaning to life. But today i am going to ask you one question somewhat related to 'believe'.

Do you believe in Horroscope?

not many posts

Blame my boyfriend not me.

Around 3 weeks and we both are hopelessly fallen for eachother. Hence, not much time for updating the blog. But I promise i will be regular, just give me some time :)

48 hours

No this is not Danny Boyle's mini version of 127 hours. This is "the hour" that has brought me the happiness and sense of life that we always dream of. Yes, from far away land, one good Samaritan has arrived in my life who has brought a bag full of happiness for me. I know this is a short-lived one but it will be the one that i will always treasure, cherish and long for.

Being crazy

PSince yesterday, trying to do one crazy thing. Not original idea but still want to do something for Erik. So when he has to go (sad reality, sigh) he will have something that tells my story and reminds me to him. I had always restrained myself but this time, I am all out to express my thoughts and love.

Btw any idea of some vacancies for foreigners? Link would be helpful.

Sometimes..

We all are just confused of what the future beholds for us... but does the fear of future stop us from exploring today? Today, 15.01.2012, seems one of us proposed to other......

Back to same old road but.....

Yes I am back to the same old road again: the road of love.

You remember my Spanish date Erik? Without me knowing much of what's happening and just 3 dates (the recent one was 24 hours long lol) I am already falling for him. But this time there is a twist. Whatever this is, my love or my obsession or passion or anything, you call it: it's going to last only for 2 months and we both know what the end would be.

Buttery Butter and the Boring one

One thing about being single and not committed is: you can meet many people, explore around and see if there is any chance of finding someone compatible to you. When I say compatible, I mean someone who can understand your joke, share similar interest or at least know what you are talking about, even if I have no idea of his interest but have oratory skills to make it sound exciting and interesting. One of my friend calls it my standard and since my standard is pretty much high (according to him), it would be difficult for me to find someone matching it unless I downgrade my standards. But i wonder what my standards are: searching for someone who has brains and ways to express them, is this too much to ask? Well, looks matter but not always. Hmm is this the reason why I am single? Food for thought for sure.

baba ji....

You are making out with your date (the one that I mentioned in earlier post)..... Both of you getting restless and suddenly one song creeps in your head and doesn't leave.... instead of thinking what you are doing, the lyrics keep playing in your head eventually killing, well, almost everything. Thank god, I survived the scare. Guess which song is that?

I hate you Mohit Chauhan! Probably now I should sing: Why this, why this, babaji babaji babaji JI?  (sing ins Kolavari D tune)

Yes I have already told you, how cute i find him. Hmm should i also mention one stupid thing? He is great in every aspect. Now you are free to use your imagination hahahahaha :P

Stupid me,

Returning back from an awesome date. He is Spanish and here as a volunteer for 5 months. Damn! He is so cute and sweet. Really felt like kissing him right there at the zoo. Yes, we went to zoo. Now looking back I could hav kissed him. I just chickened out. I am such a stupid. Next time we meet (hopefully we do tht soon) I am giving damn to my moral values and the people around :D

crazy, stupid love

I admit, I am afraid of love or is it commitment? Or is it committed love? Isn't there some love with no commitments? But then what's the point of being in love? The idea of loving someone crazy is scary. Please note that when I say crazy, it doesn't mean being pagal and shouting "kkkkkkkkk kiran" but loving someone so much that nothing matters except that person. My friends say and I admit, probably I love myself like that and wouldn't love anyone else putting myself at risk for that person. When I was in relationship, I always tried to stay away from those possible candidates who would be crazy, stupid lovers. I feel suffocated, yes i am that dork. I need space in my relationship, need air to breathe and time to evaluate where I am heading. But that doesn't mean I look for others. Probably when i was young and wild, I would have done so but now nothing else matters if I have that elusive crazy love (read is metaphorically, this line is just to indicate my firm commitment to monogamous relationship). But now I am single, sometimes i wish for such love. I wish for someone who would stand by me, forever and always. Not clutching to me but standing by me.

But Pooh (have i introduced her? Well she is the darling. My friend since i started learning alphabets) has to say that such person is right in front of me but i am looking for something else. Today when I was pretty lost in my failure to do work i was supposed to, she asked me about Mosby. Yes, nowadays i talk a lot about him, at least here. She reminded me he is hopelessly falling for me and I am turning my eyes blind to that. Yes, he calls me at least twice (since last few days) from his home country and tries to be updated of my life and updates his stories as well. Pooh had to point out that if he wasn't that serious about me why would he call me everyday? Like always I reminded her about my refusal to be committed in relationship and branded my relationship with Mosby as a friend with benefits. But she did favor by reminding me that being together is always not about sex but more than that and I have liberty to fool around but not hurt someone else's dream. Now is there anything I can do? Every time we  had some intimate moment, I have reminded Mosby of reality and he cuts me short saying "Yes, Yes I know it's just friends and nothing more. I understand and I am okay with it". Phew! I wonder when I fall for helplessly would that person respond me the same way I am responding to Mosby? If that happens, how will i take it. I am that bad, you see :(

Just random thought

This FEDEX guy is so yum and hot. Haha now I understand why sleeping with delivery guy is such a hit fantasy of both: straight and curved ones lol.

One day, two day... who counts anyway :)

I am supposed to finish my self-evaluation but here I am, blank as a white sheet and wondering what did I do last 12 months and how should I project it. I got few more days to finish it but there are other equally important works piling up at my desk and I helplessly look at them and tell them "soon baby, soon".

Morning began in all glory. Woke up, did some exercises, took photo of myself and noticed by abs are not that bad either but agreed I need hard workout. Reached office with excitement and then the cold killed everything. Yes temperature has gone down and my mind just froze. Being more and more worried about my own shape (everyone becomes, not only gay.... so stop being judgemental :P) I decided to avoid rice. One time rice is enough for me, I declared to myself so called my friends and told them I would join them for lunch. When I reached there, order was already done and voilà it's Spaghetti for me. I thought, all right one last time. But seeing the order they have made, I was mortified and wondered can we finish it? Can WE?

But at the end we did :)

After lunch, I thought I would again push myself for finishing the work I am supposed to. But I just can't concentrate. So I am trying to make my own list of sexiest men alive hahahaha. Your list sucks People's Mag. lol

Of course don't want to post all the list now and make you confused. Probably I should do one person at one post. How about that? Yes, I will end my future posts (not all, be warned) with the person I find so HOT hahahahaha. So here goes first person to make in my list :)

Prince Harry.

If you ask me, he is one of the hottest ginger (sorry about the word) alive in the world. He is wild, he is nasty and centre of controversy. Not because of these reasons, he made to my list but because if you closely look at him, he has that rare mixture of innocence and good looks. He is simply HOT hahahaha. Sometimes I do wonder about his sexual orientation lol. Btw Did I share my dream about him? During one of my travel I saw a dream. Apparently he had come to our home nation and we had dinner together. No idea how did i end up in royal list lol. But speak of the devil, next day paper had his story of willingness to ascent Everest and for that he might pop here during March, April. Truth or rumour, only he knows. Sometimes brain works in such a funny way.

postcard

Have you ever received handwritten postcards? Well don't think about our school days when we used to give postcards of Bollywood actors to wish our friends and teacher Happy Dashain or Happy New Year. I meant, from someone who is grown up and though there is an option of sending email, s/he sends you Post Card?
Mosby had sent me postcards while he was in  Kathmandu. No, I didn't receive them. He was surprised that I hadn't got any postcards. It turns out he sent me 4 postcards while he was in Kathmandu, one from Hong Kong and one from mainland China. I haven't got any of them. I asked around to see if something has arrived in our PBO and good news is, there is something in PBO. My office guy is going to collect today and I hope that's my card.  As far as I could remember, I have never ever received postcard from anyone and like a kid I am pretty excited about it. :)
Continuing with Mosby, seems he had awful homecoming experience. When his plane was landing at HK, there was some turbulences which made him sweat and have difficulty in breathing and headache. Since he was coming back from Nepal, a bird flu affected country, and shows symptoms somewhat similar to the virus, he was quarantined at the airport, medical checks were done and without allowing him to enter HK, he was directly sent to Mainland. No, it wasn't bird flu and he is recovering well. Sometimes life's funny and puts you in such a awkward situation. Probably  Mosby felt same at that time!

P.S. Starting today i began doing some exercises till i join the club. I will not let my laziness overtake me this time (fingers crossed :P). Hopefully, we do that soon :D

till then, goodbye!

2012 has already knocked at my door. Yes, I am 3 days late to say "Happy New Year" but does it matter by how many days i am late? Anyways, felt like looking back 2011. It has defined me, gave me courage and made me strong. This is the year I will always remember for gathering courage to speak out my story to my friends and my sisters. This is the year I will always remember for meeting some awesome people including AK. This is the year I will always remember for some lost love. Finished my Masters (dissertation is there, but i can still say i did it :P), got my dog and made me hopeful of my future and my happiness.

Few things I look forward in 2012:
Probably Love. I am afraid of commitments and all but still I wish to have someone beside me who actually understand me and vows to be there when i need most. Yes, I would do same.
One more overseas trip with friends. We had made this pact that we would go somewhere Sun and Sand to celebrate the bachelor's party. Hopefully one of my friend would fly from Europe and we fly down from Himalayas to sea and beach, laughing...shouting... drinking....and enjoying the bond like never before. Fingers crossed!
Upgrade in career: Well who doesn't want this? But probably I should start looking for some international positions so that I could travel faraway lands, working and saving some money :P
Buy one book a month: Yes, this is my resolution i made in the morning actually. I got one book yesterday which i wanted so badly.... Murakami. I am trying to convince another friend to do so :D
Join the gym, get back to shape. Learn French and say "Bonjour ... Aimeriez-vous avoir un dîner avec moi?"

This are few things I hope to happen with me. Lets see, how the year unfolds. Till then, goodbye 2011. :)